Welcome back to PORCELAIN PEAK! Here is the first episode of Season 2. On this episode We share a slew of changes as we navigate new, trivia, the watchlist, and our main course. Join us as we discuss ET, District 9, and all the happenings of Season 2.Read More
Let’s face it, the Words For Weirdos home page hasn’t been nearly as active as it used to be. Let me explain the inactivity. Since I started Words For Weirdos roughly 2 years ago, a lot has changed for me. I purchased a home, gained more responsibility at work, and started grad school (I swear I’m not trying to brag). On top of those two things, I started and continue collaborations with other artists, and got two podcasts off the ground. All exciting ventures, but time consuming and stressful nonetheless.
For a while, I have thought about how I can focus that stress and all these new endeavors into something productive. An idea that I had and has ruminated for months is doing a series of posts called ADVENTURES IN. This series will include Adventures In…grad. school, Autism, and anxiety—the last of which will be presented today. These will be posts about my experiences and struggles with these topics as I make my way through all of them. Frequent WFW visitors might be asking how this is related to spooky scary stuff, or to creative writing, and the short answer is that it’s not. Movies, and Horror, and poetry will still be presented, just not as often as I would like. In the meantime, you can expect more frequent posts regarding the topics mentioned.
My hope for these is to reach out to people who might be going through or dealing with the same things as I am. If I reach even one person and help them feel hopeful or less alone in their struggles then I will consider the Adventures In series a success.
Please join me on this journey as we take an Adventure In Anxiety.
My adventure in anxiety began as a preteen, at least that’s what I remember. A feeling of unexplainable dread and fear would wash over me, make my heart race, palms sweaty, and make me want to not do anything. At the time, I didn’t know what it was, a nervousness followed by short breaths. I didn’t think much of it at first, figured I was nervous and it would pass. The older I got, the worse the anxiety got. Constantly I was conflicted with nearly every decision—didn’t want to do anything, but then got cabin fever if I stayed in too long. There was no winning.
When I started college things worsened. Anxiety took over. Looking for parking-panic; locating classroom-panic; figuring out where to sit in class-panic; and forget about speaking during class. It is difficult to go to class when even driving there makes you feel on edge. At least in high school there were people I knew and were comforting and familiar. In college I was on my own. Things finally boiled over in my junior year of college. I knew I needed to do something different because anxiety coupled with depression made me hate everyone and everything. It was at this point I sought out therapy.
For a few months I saw a therapist through Kaiser, his name was Matt. He was a great fit and helped me out by giving me tools I needed to process my jumbled mess of feelings. The more I talked with him, the more I liked him, the more I was afraid of getting attached—which I did. After a few months Matt was promoted and no longer providing therapy. As you can imagine, this was a huge let down for me. I quit therapy after this and decided to go it alone.
For years I used the tools taught to me, sometimes they worked, sometimes they didn’t. I did my best to fake it until I made it. I’d love to say things were great, but they weren’t—they were okay at best. Last year proved to be one of my more difficult years. My grandma passed spring of 2018 and that sent me downward. Depression and anxiety ensued. My motivation was gone. I didn’t even want to get out of bed. Or I wanted to tackle the world. I was all over the place emotionally. Some days I felt everything, but most days I felt nothing but emptiness. About a year passed like this. I thought I’d never get myself out of the hole I was in…at least not on my own.
Two months ago I turned 30. Seems trivial, but for me it wasn’t. This was the icing on the cake, and I couldn’t stand it anymore, so I reached back out to Kaiser. Here’s their process for getting a therapist. First you reach out and ask for someone to contact you so that you can discuss whether or not you qualify for their service. I did this, and it took weeks to hear back from someone. This was a minor setback and a bit disappointing honestly. I had little to no hope, and the last glimmer I had I spent waiting to see if I could even get services. Not the best start. Once I finally talked to someone they decided I could come talk to someone in person to see where I stood. I legit had to fill out the same survey three times. The survey asked me various questions regarding how I have been feeling for the past two weeks. This is used to help determine where you stand with anxiety and depression and other ailments. Seemed like bs, but with the line of work I’m in, I understood there’s a process to assessments and after a certain amount of time out of treatment, the process has to start over. From here I spoke with a woman. She analyzed my results, asked me questions, and determined I have anxiety and depression (I could have told her that without the survey). From there she set me up with a therapist she thought would be a good fit for me.
All this was kind of a lengthy and difficult process, especially for someone feeling as low as I did, and for someone with anxiety telling them to stay asleep in bed. I am glad I followed through, but I was crazy nervous to meet my new therapist, which I wouldn’t get to see for another month. I’ll let you know how that went next time.
If you’re feeling low with depression and or anxiety then reach out. Trust me, I know that is easier said than done, and the process can seem arduous, but it is worth the process.
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JB and Tone take a much needed jump back into horror as they explore the life and crimes of one of the genres most influential players. From skin lamps to lady part stress balls, the guys give the 411 on…you’ll have to listen to find out! During news they discuss a new Collin Ferrel film, a tantalizing musical, and the box-office numbers for Endgame.Read More
Hello, Weirdos. The following is Episode 30 of one of the Words For Weirdos podcasts, Porcelain Peak. As the title suggests, this episode covers Avengers: Endgame. Check out the post below.
In the final installment of Avengers April, JB and Tone sit down to discuss the highly anticipated film: Avengers Endgame. This discussion contains spoilers for Endgame and tangentially for other movies in the MCU. You have been warned. The guys share some news about newly released trailers, Tone crushes trivia, and then they dive down into the quantum realm and discuss Endgame atom by atom. Have a listen to episode 30 below, then grab your Pym particles and do whatever it takes to travel over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe, so you never miss a climactic episode.
Wow. What an episode! Share your thoughts in a comment below or on any of the Porcelain Peak socials. Next week they are going to be doing a deep dive of a specific serial killer and his influence on film.
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Full breakdown of the MCU
Hello, Weirdos. Here is the latest episode of Porcelain Peak, one of the WFW podcasts. As the title suggests, this episode covers a dive into Phase 3 of the MCU. Have a listen and let the guys know what you think. Keep On Creepin’.
Assemble one last time as Avengers April draws to a close. This week JB and Tone discuss seven more MCU movies as they make their way across the infinite vastness of space. On the list this week is: Captain America Civil War, Black Panther, Spider-Man Homecoming, Ant-Man and the Wasp, Doctor Strange, Thor Ragnarok, and Avengers Infinity War. In news, they briefly discuss the new Star Wars trailer, and in trivia guys go head-to-head with a solid week of flexing their horror knowledge muscles. Take a listen below, then open up a Doctor Strange portal to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe, so you never miss a super episode…Wakanda Forever!
Suit up Porcelain Peak participants, it is time to assemble once again for Avengers April Phase 2. This week JB and Tone travel to new galaxies to discuss 7 more MCU movies as they mare their way through all of them in chronological order. They go over news regarding Disney+ announcements, and Tone wrecks it at trivia. Listen below as the guys discuss Iron Man 3, Thor The Dark World, Captain America Winter Soldier, Guardians of the Galaxy, Guardians of the Galaxy Vol.2, Avengers Age of Ultron, and Ant-Man, then make your way to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe, so you never miss a cinematic episode…lives may depend on it.Read More
Hello, Weirdos. All month long one of the podcasts that WFW produces is doing a retrospective look at all the MCU films. Here is the first episode. Stay tuned as they cover all the films leading up to Endgame at the end of the month. Keep on Creepin’.
Porcelain Peak fans assemble as JB and Tone fly into Avengers April Phase 1—a retrospective look at all the MCU films in anticipation of Endgame. On this episode they share some news about the voice of Chucky and discuss the Joker trailer. The heart of the episode is a grand discussion of Captain America: The First Avenger, a brief discussion of Captain Marvel (for a full discussion see the bonus episode), Ironman, Ironman 2, Thor, The Incredible Hulk, and The Avengers. Do them a super favor and have a listen below, then jet over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe, so you never miss a heroic episode.
I've always wanted to write a children’s story. Over the years I’ve rotes around with a few ideas. One of my most beloved stories, as a child and a adult, is The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein. When tinkering with ideas for my own story, I wanted it to be in the same vein. Below is a first draft of a story I wrote. Eventually, once I get a final draft, I’d like have the story illustrated. Until then I would love some feedback—suggestions, constructive criticism, etc. Anyway, here’s the story, enjoy.
Once there was a lonely amp who couldn’t speak. After years of silence, the amp met a guitar. The guitar plugged into the amp and they began to make music together. No matter what the guitar tried to play, the amp only spoke the saddest songs.
Finally the guitar asked him,“what’s wrong, amp?”
The amp, now able to speak through the guitar, said, “I’m sad because I’m in love.”
The guitar strummed with excitement, “In love? But that’s a great thing. Why are you sad about that?”
“Because,” the amp belted, “without you I don’t have a voice. For the years I’ve been in love with lemons, but I’ve never been able to tell them how I truly feel. How I think about and miss them more each day. I wish I could tell them how I loved the shape of their bodies, the texture of their skin against mine, the way they smell, their color, how they felt resting upon me, and how I felt with them just next to me. How I’ve loved them since I was a pocket amp in an old classroom…and still do. How if amps and lemons had souls, ours would be intertwined. How if amps and lemons were pages, ours would be bound into a tragic love story.”
With another stroke of the strings the guitar told the amp, “let’s tell the lemons! I can give you a voice. The lemons need to know, amp. Then we can play happy songs together.”
“We can’t,” the amp told the guitar, “I haven’t seen the lemons in years. I’m too old and dusty now. My mesh is tattered, my speaker worn, my cord frayed. Plus, last I heard the lemons were with spending time with apples now. I have nothing to offer the lemons.”
Now the guitar understood why the amp always sounded so sad. For the rest of their friendship they played sad songs together hoping that maybe one day the lemons would hear...
That is all I have for now. Please let me know what you think. I know it needs work, but I wanted to get initial thoughts. Stay posted for further iterations. Keep on Creepin’.
On episode 26 of Porcelain Peak, JB and Tone are joined by a fellow sci-fi and horror fan, graphic artist Anthony Silva. They hunker down and discuss every episode of the new Netflix anthology series Love, Death, and Robots. The guys share some news, crank out some trivia, and dive deep into this show. Have a listen below, then hop in your mech suit and stomp over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share, and subscribe so you never miss an animated episode.
Hello Weirdos. Thought everyone might be interested in this BONUS episode from one of our podcasts, Porcelain Peak. On this special bonus episode JB and Anthony are joined by 2 female guests to discuss the latest MCU film, Captain Marvel. Part review, part dissection, and a whole bunch of fun. Have a listen below then blast over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe, so you never miss a marvelous episode.
What do you think think of the movie? Let us know your thoughts on how this female driven film played out. Shoot us a comment on here, or leave us a message on our Instagram.
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She came to me while I dreamt
A hummingbird with radiant wings
We embraced and I felt warm
for the first time since she left
I hadn’t felt happiness since
I awoke completely in shambles
Salty streams streaking down
my saddened dreary face
I’d give up all my tired hands built
if I could just hear her voice
Hello, Weirdos. Quick announcement for you.
The Words For Weirdos podcast Porcelain Peak has a slew of new ways to reach out.
and its own URL porcelainpeak.com
In other news, the other WFW podcast Passion Project isn’t over…just taking a break as we gather more content for season 2. Looking to release 10 more episodes later this year.
Be on the lookout for all that good stuff. Keep on Creepin’.
Hello, Weirdos. Episode 12 of Porcelain Peak is now available. On this holiday episode JB and I sit down to compare and contrast the holiday classic Black Christmas and the middle of the road slasher remake Black X-mas. Enjoy the episode below, then hitch a sleigh ride over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, share and subscribe. Feel free to let us know what you think below. Enjoy!
Do you agree with our comments on these films? Either way, let us know in the comments below. And share some of your favorite holiday scares.
Hello, Weirdos! I want to share with you a couple of my new pick ups this month…
On the left you’ll see the Universal Classic Monsters Complete 30 film collection on Blu-ray. As the cover indicates this features all the classic Dracula, Frankenstein, Mummy, Invisible Man, Wolfman, Creature from the Black Lagoon, and Phantom of the Opera movies. Essentially, this collection is a box containing all the individual collections in one housing unit. The benefit of buying them this way opposed to individually is the box keeping them all together, and it come with a 40+ page booklet discussing different aspects of the films. Some of the collections do have crossovers, so although it reads, “30 film collection,” there are actually 37 films in this pack because of the repeats.
On the right is a limited edition Steelbook of Halloween III: Season of the Witch. This steelbook is a full wrap, so spreading open the box (as pictured) reveals one massive scene. If you look close enough there is even a guest appearance from The Shape himself. H3 was a pick up for fellow horror enthusiast, but I dug it so much that I picked one up for myself as well. Let me know what you think below, and if you have some special pieces in your collection feel free to share. Keep on Creepin’.
Hello, Weirdos. This week I’d like to talk about a new show on Netflix called The Haunting of Hill House. Before I dive into that I want to mention that episodes 3, 4 and 5 of Porcelain Peak are now available. Please check those out on Apple Podcasts and rate, review, & subscribe so you never miss an episode. On the latest episode, we continue our 31 days of horror countdown, and share some Halloween traditions.
Let’s discuss Hill House. This was highly anticipated for me. The trailer and early reviews had me hyped. It was on my Netflix “list” weeks ago. I watched it immediately the day it came out (October 12). The first episode did not disappoint, so I kept watching—for a few more episodes. I could not put it down. So far that’s all I’ve been able to watch. But I still wanted to talk about those few.
Episode 1 is a hunting set up full of atmosphere and tension. Sucks you in be giving only pieces of the events that unfolded one fateful evening. Out the gate this episode induced a sense of dread and forebodingness. Classic haunted house set up. We follow a now older Steven throughly the episode and receive pieces of the events of Hill House through flashback. As the episode progresses we meet the family both as adults and youths. Nell, both young and old, pulls us in as our main focus for being haunted inside and out. The episode concludes with a gut punch.
After that the episodes slow down. Each one takes time to examine the other siblings. In episode 2 we learn about Shirley and her fascination with fixing and solving and death. We learn about Luke’s drug addiction, and Theo’s need for gloves. These episodes show that it isn’t simply the house that is haunted, but so are the people who used to live there. The Cain family are all haunted by something internal. Their ailments have manifested from childhood. Throughout out each of these episodes we are give flashbacks of their time in Hill House to show how the adults were shaped by their spirited upbringings. Episode 5 introduces a new element to the show which was unexpected, but worked.
One episode that particularly stuck out to me was episode 6. This again consists of past and present segments, but this one is sewn together to appear as one long shot. Without the cuts the tension and emotion builds. The entire show is filled with emotion, but episode 6 hammers it in and nearly had me in tears. I don’t want to spoil anything, but as far as 60% of the season goes I highly recommend it. I’ll share my final thoughts once I finish the season. Let me know what you think below.
Hello, Weirdos. Episode 2 of Porcelain Peak is out tomorrow. Episode 2 has a special guest cohost. We get into the first chunk of our October countdown, which includes discussion on Splinter, Hell Fest, The Nun, It Follows, Veronica , Annihilation, and Hell House LLC. After, we share some real life accounts, and set listeners up with our next 7 movies.
Take a listen and follow along! Feel free to share your lists with us. We love hearing what other’s are into. And if you dig the podcast head over to Apple Podcasts and rate, review, and subscribe so we can move up the podcast ranks and reach the masses.
At the end of the episode I challenge my cohost to write a 2 sentence horror story. We'll be sharing those next week. If you have a 2 sentence story of your own share it in the comments below and maybe we’ll read them on the episode.
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Hello, Weirdos. I have some great news. My producer Randy and I had such a blast talking about The Endless we decided to start a new podcast in the same vein. The podcast is titled Porcelain Peak and will consist of all things horror and science-fiction. We’re shooting for weekly episodes with the first being released on October 1st.
Episode 1 consists of a creepy story from H.P Lovecraft. We also give the first 7 movies we'll be tackling for our 31 Days of Halloween list. For the month of October each episode will consist of a discussion of what we watched and various other segments.
Other episodes will cover movies, shows literature, games, and anything else regarding horror or science-fiction. You can expect readings, original work, andlysis & review, and a bunch more.
Look out for episode one coming October 1st. In the mean time Keep on Creepin’ .
Hello, Weirdos. This last week I had the pleasure of being featured on another Hyper Forge Alpha Network podcast—the Black Star Audiobook podcast in a segment titled: Beyond Black Star. The podcast itself is an audio drama with a full cast and production. The Beyond Backstar episodes feature Randy, the host and creator, sitting down with various quests discussing various topics. This week Randy invited me on to discuss The Endless—an eerie Lovecraftian science fiction film starring Justin Benson and Aaron Moorhead. The Endless is about two brothers who are mysteriously called back to a cult they left as kids. Upon their return, they begin to understand why they left to begin with. Check out the episode through the link below, and shoot Black Star a rating and review.
While you're clicking links, don't forget to head over to Apple News to follow Words For Weirdos to get live updates on all new posts. Keep on Creepin'.
Looking at the post previous to this it seems that I’ve been absent for 2 months. I figured I’d share why. Avid readers may notice some changes in site layout. All the creative writing pages have been condensed into 1 page. Movie reviews will no longer be on a separate page, but instead included right here on the main feed. A new page has been added, simply titled Podcast. This has been one of my new projects taking up a chunk of my time. The podcast is titled Passion Project and it is an exploration of what people love. There are 4 epiosodes out with the 5th arriving this week. Topics our guests have covered include sound design, photography, content creation, and Nintendo, with Jazz guitar soon to follow. Pop over to that page and check it out.
Another project which has taken up a lot of my time is woodworking. I know this isn’t my typical area (the website isn’t called Wood For Weirdos) but I figured I’d share what projects I’ve been up to incase anyone is interested.
In the past couple months I’ve done 3 wood working projects. The first was a custom picture frame I made from old shelves I had around the house. I needed the frame for a puzzle.
Not sure the type of wood. Used a table saw and a mitre box for the cuts. To fasten the pieces together I drilled holes for dowels, hit it with some glue, and hammered it all together. I hit it with a coat of gray wash stain and rubbed some of it off to give it a slight rustic look. No bevels because I didn’t want any of the puzzle images covered. The puzzle sits within the the frame, held in place with a backing.
Using that same old shelf, I made an address sign with a planter box for my house. One of the old numbers fell off so I figured I’d take the opportunity to create something new and different.
This piece was a bit easier to make, and the process went smoother now that I had some practice. I used a kreg jig and screws to fasten the parallel back pieces together, and to secure the frame of the planter to the back. This was my first experience with a kreg jig, but I found it simple to use and helpful. Once those pieces were settled, I used some glue and finishing nail to secure the face of the planter to the frame. Once all the wood filler settled, I sanded everything and gave it all a coat of dark stain. After that, I spayed it down with spar urethane. For the numbers I followed the directions on the packaging. The hardware for the float mount was a tad longer than the wood was thick (should have checked that before), but I made it work. To hang, I used heavy duty, outdoor 3M strips, and haven't had any issues. Grabbed a few small plants and popped them in there. I got the basic design idea from Shanty 2 Chic, but modified it to work for me.
My last project was a mantel for my fireplace. The previous owners painted the wall and the centered fireplace all a chocolate brown. Which was fine, but it needed an update. Along with changing the wall color and using a separate color on the fireplace, I decided to create a new mantel because the old was…well, old. I headed to the internet for ideas and came across Addicted 2 Decorating. Again, I used a modified version of the design to fit my fireplace and style. Unfortunately, I didn't think to take a before picture (aside from the old mantel) until after the project was in progress. Here are some photos of the mantel in various stages.
Top left was the original mantel. I was going to refinish it, but the sanding process proved more arduous than anticipated. Top center was the wood I picked up from Home Depot. Nothing special—3 cheap pieces long enough to create the new mantel. Top center shows the completed frame of the mantel during the assembling process. The frame was made of two side pieces topped with the face and nailed in place. Again, I used a table saw for all the cuts. Those pieces, and all the others, were attached using finishing nails. Once the "u" shape was settled I measured and cut pieces to fill in the sides—essentially making a lidless box. After all the glue and wood filler was dry, I sanded the entire thing using an electric hand sander using 60, 120, then 400 grit sandpaper to make it as smooth as possible. To give a solid piece of wood look, I covered both ends with a sheet of wood veneer to hide the seems; I sanded that as well to look more concise. The bottom left picture was the mantel stained. I did two coats with the same stain I used for the address planter because it matched preexisting shelves around the fireplace. After the stain, I did two coats of polyurethane. That was it! I used the system already in place from the old mantel to mount this one. You can see the finished product in the last two pictures.
Overall these projects were a fun learning experience. Each one presented new challenges, and opportunities to practice techniques I learned along the way. Although it has always interested me, I've never done any woodworking before, so this was a completely new experience. I don't have any new projects lined up, but I definitely have more ideas.
That being said, expect more classic Words For Weirdos content coming soon and regularly. Passion Project is roughly a third of the way through the first season, so keep a look out for new episodes every two weeks. Let me know what you think of the projects below, and head over to Apple Podcasts to rate, review, and subscribe to Passion Project. Thanks for reading, and Keep on Creepin'.
Hello, Weirdos. As promised, next up on Franchise Fever is the DC Extended Universe! Last week I dove into the first two films. This week I'll be watching Suicide Squad and Wonder Woman, followed by Justice League the week after for those following along. For the remainder of this installment each movie will feature Lasso of Truth (the good), Kryponite (the bad), and The Riddler (questions). Here are my thoughts on the first two movies...
Man of Steel:
Director: Zack Snyder.
Lasso of Truth: This one I have seen multiple times. I still enjoy it. It is realistic and grounded. MOS is shot in a way that makes you feel like you're there. It feels like it could be a part of Nolan’s Dark Knight universe. They picked the right name for the film, Man of Steel , because this movie isn’t about the alien superhero, it’s about the man, about Clark, and what it takes for him to become the hero we all know. It’s a piece about what it means to be human. Cavill and Adams kill it. It’s a movie about adults for adults. They aren’t trying to appeal to kids in the way other superhero franchises might.
Kryptonite: The pacing is a bit slow. And the product placement is terrible. They go to an IHOP at least 3 times and crash into a Sears and 7/11.
The Riddler: Does Martha Kent work for Sears? In a scene she is wearing a Sears laniard and a Sears polo shirt. Why? How much time passes after Zod’s defeat and when Clark goes to work at the Daily Planet? Because Metropolis got destroyed, including the Planet, yet Clark is at work by the end.
Batman v. Superman: Dawn of Justice (Ultimate Edition):
Director: Zack Snyder.
Lasso of Truth: I heard different opinions about which cut of this film to watch, so I took it to folks over at the DC reddit. Unanimously I was told to watch the Ultimate Edition. I did just that. When I saw the theatrical cut in theaters I remember never caring to see this film again. After seeing the Ultimate Edition I enjoyed this film. Lex is great. He is the conductor of the Wayne/Kent orchestra. I grew up with Smallville so I’m used to a different portrayal of Lex. Eisenberg’s performance reminds me to the Ledger Joker in his brilliance as a mastermind. But take that Joker, give him a ton of money and make him high strung like he’s on cocaine and you have this Lex. I dug it.
Kryptonite: I think the title is misleading because the two heroes hardly fight, which is what people were expecting. When they do it’s great, but it happens twice briefly. They stop because their moms have the same name. What? After 2.5 hours the quick hero smash up ends because mom names, and now Batman suddenly doesn’t hate Superman? Weak. This movie feels like 3 hours. It focuses on political issues, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but does bog the film down. The last weak bit for me is the superfriends gifs Wonder Woman watches. I like when they show the hero symbols—a hint, a tease to keep it interesting. Then they overdue it showing the little clips of each new character as if audiences don’t know The Flash is fast or that Aquaman swims.
The Riddler: I honestly don’t know the answer to this, was Wayne’s mom always named Martha? Is Superman’s true identity easy to discover or is he terrible at hiding it? Two movies, two people find out who he is, except Bruce Wayne (but then he’d have found out about Martha too early).
Look out for the new installment coming next week featuring the next two films on the path to Justice League . Keep on Creepin’ .